Tuesday, June 10, 2014
That moment when you realize that you don't give much of a shit if your ex has a new girlfriend or not is a good moment. A good moment. I recently spent way too much brain energy on deducing that he had probably joined Tinder, and then when I reached that conclusion, I discovered that I didn't even particularly care. I mean, I cared enough to laugh at all the poon he was probably not slaying, but I just... don't actually care anymore. I mean, yeah, it's annoying to get facebook notifications that he's been tagged in my old photos, but it doesn't make me feel nauseous or make me cry anymore, which was just going on for way too long. And it feels goooood. I even tried thinking about all the things that used to make me sad, or angry, or whatever, and meh. It's not a thing anymore.
So fuck yeah.
Meanwhile I'm getting ready for Denver Comic Con, and I'm calling it now: It's gonna be the highlight of Summer 2014. Four straight days of geeky girl-fun with Shaun, hangouts with Zak, my first adventure in cosplay, and so much cider. I can't contain my giddiness I'm so excited! I leave on Thursday morning and I still have so much to do for my cosplay, so tonight and tomorrow are going to be spent in a crazed frenzy of last-minute cosplay shit, laundry, packing, and maybe making a pit stop at the Belmont or Hawthorne food carts with Megan before I go because fuck, they're both closing this fall. Thursday morning can't come soon enough!
Otherwise life is good. It's really good. I'm as excited as ever about being in Portland; it still feels like a dream sometimes. I love my job, I love my writing group, I love my roommate, my friends, my dog... there's just a lot of awesome shit in life right now.
Monday, June 2, 2014
I feel like this is one of the first times in a long time that I might be embracing summer. In fact it might be the first time since the days when I was in high school and did nothing all summer but sleep 'til noon and borrow my mom's debit card to buy smoothies and stay up 'til 2:00 am watching video countdowns on VH1 with Rose. I'm excited about buying summer clothes, which is so ridiculous. And I'm excited about such summery things? Such as: drinking margaritas outside in the sun, attending BrewFest, barbecuing, acquiring a bike, biking to bars in the evenings, the Mississippi/Belmont/Alberta street fairs, long evenings, and iced coffee. I realize most of these involve alcohol consumption. No, grandpa, I don't have a drinking problem.
As a related aside, I just spent $80 on these wedge sandals at Macy's yesterday, which is possibly the most money I've ever spent on a pair of shoes that I can recall, and really says something about my relationship with summer at the moment. Like, okay summer, I get you. I feel you. I'm gonna let you into my life, mmk, but on the condition that I do it while wearing $80 sandals. (They are very comfy FYI.)
I just have a feeling it's going to be a good summer. It's kicking off next week with Denver Comic Con, which is gonna be killa. Even though my cosplay is going to be so, so half-assed because I'm not even near finished with it and I leave for Denver next Thursday. It's okay, that's what the weekend is for, right? Right? ...If anyone has a good pattern for an infinity scarf/hood combo, let me know. I need one to modify for this dumb cosplay. Why oh why did I choose the most difficult costume of all time to make by hand. Why. But no matter. I'll pull it all together at the last minute, as I always do. DCC! I'm coming for you!
And even though it's still very light outside, I now have to turn off the lights and try to sleep. The one crappy thing about working at 6:00 am. Okay one of the many crappy things, the main one being that I have to work at 6:00 am.